I have been in a relationship that started merely as a strange piece of ass.Unfortunately I was foolish enuf to become attatched emotionally as well.Its a very long story that i won't bore you with but lets just say that as time went along there were many twists and turns and I hung on and got even more deeply involved.It came to a point of where I was introduced to the family etc and yes I was still married at the time.
However.............as time goes by for whatever the reason one of you will eventually either feel guilty or maybe even in my case find that the novelty will wear off and you are left out in the cold.
I speak from major league experience.......
If you find someone and it becomes exclusive or marriage......respect that person and stay w/ them.If for whatever the reason you feel that you need to find a playmate......jerk off more often or just close your eyes when you are w/ your girl and dream of whomeever.
As the old saying goes........what a tangled web we weave when at first we practice to decieve.
After a while its inevitable......someone will begin to have feelings.Once that begins you are way in over your head and there is no nice way out.She/He begins to find ways to find you more often...most likely when its not a good time....your phonhe starts to ring at the most inoppurtune times etc etc.
And then you have to start covering your tracks to make reasons for the time you spend away from home and other events.
Eventually the other will start to make larger and larger demands on your time and once that happens its way too late.
Since I have been down this road I have learned more about myself and life than I ever knew before.What I have done to myself is something I will pay for for the rest of my life.
Hell.........I became such a close part of her family that I even tucked her daughter in bed on ocassion.......and yes...........he was home each time and never said anything.And last night we were all at a dinner party together.I was laying on the couch watching TV and thier daughter curled up w/ me like I was her Dad....her Father was sitting right there and said nothing.
She and I are fading into one anothers past slowly but surely and yes...its difficult.Just as w/ any relationship there are times when I think of her when I hear a song or pass by a place that we have been before and then there are the times when I will just have her face wash through my minds eye and I still smile because back when it was all good it was the very best.
I would never take any of it back but I will say that there are the times when i would take it all back in a moment.
Am I proud of it all???No!!But its one of those things that I have learned from.
As a matter of fact there have been a couple of other women I have known over the years that tried to start something w/ me but seeing that I had been down that road before and saw the sadness that it leads to I have found ways to deter thier hopes.One of them I had to be absolutely pint blank.yes,she cried but I explained that it was for the best.
You guys can do whatever you please....its your life.I can speak for myself and say that I will not go down that road ever again w/ a woman who is married or otherwise spoken for in any way at all.
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