Smiley faces in public are cool, but I think on the insides, I'm really quite broken.
I mean, when you're an asshole...and you don't care, you always think, "whateves happens, happens..." then when you kinda, grow up a little and give it your all...when whateves happens, you're heart is all "kabloooosh!"..and you're all "holy shit! I can still feel?...I thought the internet killed that part of me years ago."
But it doesn't die...it just shuts up, I mean for fucks sake...I have pictures on my hd of a girl giving me a blowjob, and I have my shoe on her head.
Like, you'd think when I'm actually being a good boyfriend, and not an asshole..that like, it would be more appreciated. Karma I suppose..even though it was me doing the dumping, my heart was probably the more broken of the two.
I kept thinking the whole relationship "what would some movie fag do"..then I would just do that, and eventually I started just, being that person. "you don't like my long hair?..I'll cut it off I guess"...."you don't like how I powerslide corners in my racecar?..I'll stop...I have to save gas anyway." ..."oh, you want me to go to a family bbq...alrighty"
Holding her at her grandmothers funeral...her dad crying on my shoulder. Spending 2k at Christmas on gifts for her and her family....being literally the closest thing to a god damn fairy tale any human could possibly be, outside of actually owning a fucking white horse.
You need me, I'm there. I don't need friends anyway. "stop using the computer?......you got it". This time, I'm going to be that guy...building so much credibility. Her mom and I are text buddies, and her dad and I hang out for fun.
Even my ex gf I was talking to, the one that kinda hates my guts said flat out "she's making the biggest mistake of her life"
Just like the others, in a few months she'll beg me to take her back...and even though I'll want to, I'm sure of it...I won't let myself get hurt like that again...I'm glad I got out before I burned any more bridges, before I knocked her up...
This time...baby, I'll be bulletproof.
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
I won't let you turn around
And tell me now, I'm much too proud
To walk away from something when it's dead
Do, do, do your dirty words
Come out to play when you are hurt?
There's certain things that should be left unsaid
Tick, tick, tick, tick on the watch
And life's too short for me to stop
Oh baby, your time is running out
I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
All you do is fill me up with doubt
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time I'll be bulletproof
This time I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof